seven day
deadline
i make this stupid mistake where in the process of searching for and finding my own voice in creating things design writing art whatever i always look for inspiration and immerse myself in stuff thats been created by others but i do it so often again again once more that the effort involved in defining myself is slowed by the definition of what others have to say about their own selves and their relationship with everything and thats plain foolish.
if i keep doing this im just going to reach a close version of me which might feel enough but its not the actual me even if closest-me is much easier to define than true-me.
and its here at the point of actual making that i always crash burn - its the volume dilemma where i have this false impression i can find more about how to find me by checking more about how others found their me instead of actually rolling up my sleeves and doing the work—the work is sacred the work is all.
consuming does not substitute creating.
i once said that establishing my self should be done through isolation from outside influencers its in this same way i have to limit the input so i can enable the output. there are only so many hours in the day week life of a man.
i must not fear the work.
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