exhaustion
trying to define beauty as both a concept and as a function has plagued me for the past few years and there has been little progress during that time even if the definitions i look for are for myself rather than universal that has not made exploring the potential of what beauty is and what is beautiful any easier. yeah okay its in the eye of the beholder or whatever but im the kinda guy who wants to define some things in his life and the more i try and push this the more confused i become.
beauty is a feeling yeah fine.
but can i predict beauty?
lets not confuse beauty with aesthetic the latter is derived from the application of a few easy-to-identify principles the former is a label that can be applied to anything and thus its easy to say this has beauty its difficult to say x is beautiful so all things x are beautiful because theyre not.
there is beauty in gesture sight moment intention so many other things which you cant group together and if you cant do that then how can you say what it is.
i have a little circle on my arm that reminds me to appreciate the beautiful both as a consumer and as a creator yet i cannot create that which i cannot know appreciating admiring taking it in are not learning materials just as much as looking at this screen teaches you how and especially why it works.
why? it drains me.
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