cavequeens
there is this dilemma you have between exposing lots of yourself and rejecting any and all self promotion youre ambivalent ambidextrous you know you could do both well but you just reject whichever is closest as you can walk this teeter-totter trying to keep in the middle a balancing act with no set purpose and i wonder why.
okay so fine you could say this was born together in our manifesto years ago bathtub promises to all our selves stay true dont overshadow either but there is a difference between talking us up or down and just leaving out there are we afraid of the insignificance that would attract or do we just refuse to add more creation in a world thats just so full of it thats the thing though all that isnt ours and for better worse this—is—no true originality but that dream died when we first consumed outerness and all thats left is some kind of weak rebellion against it all this that stamping our feet childish crying i am me and im growing dismissing more consumption until i am pure creation in every gesture decision action—a dead behemoth monstrosity no future ahead hopeless stationery in spacetime a source pulsing pulsing—
thats a long away though and we cant measure it yet in multiples of the one hour we have right now blacken cream whiten cotton a conscience unsure sometimes of what it does wrong right presence might help and i guess this:this is a progress unto understanding if only we didnt take such a complicated route but we were never ones to ask for directions no matter wed never admit were lost no matter.
washing all this blather away cyclical bullshit as always (what can you we do) is this a refusal to look in the mirror a dismissal of potential recognition as in do we not want to accept that what we see is us that theres a physical representation of us and is it because we dislike calling ourselves human understanding all that entails or is it something else such as judgement applied to the masses basic not worthy of our selves bits and pieces that we separate—the same way we cannot entertain relationships morethan casual do we also reject the communion potential of potential entities deemed as lesser simply because they have no active current time contribution to our own sum of being (question mark optional).
if so if we accept this as some kind of commitment and proclaim to ourselves then is this also a stronger promise to work or at least acknowledge the pieces constituting our wishes what to do with existing i mean we are already doing something right exactly here but later on how is this wannabe evolution part of our reality theres that always question of what is present can we have present presence better more complete us or just a different not changed just the same as we will always (i think) be one carry and offer names yet no impact on the number.
they keep saying that growth addition potential increases when multiplying chances of others finding and contributing one form two shape many options in five dimensional spans across and i guess that is true i do see hear logic behind it just harder to touch harder more to stay in touch.
were there a platform for mass attention i dont think wed grab and thats another oddity in our choices made this whole debate quantity quality restricts us to an ideal that may never come this long-awaited critic who can pummel us into fine dust cut down so we can pleasure ourselves once again in the various pieces that can be built later taller closer to some critical deathly morbidly connoisseurly point plane planet presence.
thats kinda part of the end goal truthfully told and im not sure how dumb it is because whatever words i put the concept in it keeps looking fucking silly which is fair we will probably be reading this in not much longer and thinking oh shit why so hey we just wanted to say hi.
case by case scenarios are as much as were going to commit to right now and i think we can all acknowledge that thats fair enough asking more is a permanent status so steps be made numbered in page and cycles of our apathy each time we crawl out it seems the outer has more to be taken from and drawing it all in and remembering is alright with me smiles all around hahah lets meet talk more often alright yes cool.
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