your conflicts and issues in defining and establishing
yourself are natural if a bit too energy-consuming
but dont become too focused on a final answer—
there is likely none,
and thats fine.
your current uncertainty of self is just
an uncertainty of potential self
— you dont need a strict definition of you
and you dont need to predict your own actions.
chaotic and hypocritical and unstable
are good enough labels for yourself
and if you ever run out of them
thats fine
too.
hello?
its you.
okay.
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